Sitting in ER (Again)

I literally couldn’t take it. I tried to use my skills and I called for mental health coaching and I took pain meds. I was still absolutely miserable. I am in so much pain it’s not funny. I don’t know how to stop it. So… back to the emergency room I go. I’m so tired … Continue reading Sitting in ER (Again)

It just keeps getting more interesting…

Hospital socks, an iv and a bracelet… where could I be?? That’s right! The emergency room! Waiting for the hospitalalist team to come admit me. I feel disgusting. Mom is blaming it on me and “eating too much thanksgiving.” I’m trying SO HARD for that not to be an eating disorder trigger. SO HARD. Also, … Continue reading It just keeps getting more interesting…

The 21st…

Something about your job: Well… I mean I don’t have one so I guess I’m grateful for that? I mean sometimes. Sometimes I am frustrated that I cannot figure out how to stay in a job like a “normal” person. It’s very difficult for me. I am terrified of my future because of this. It’s … Continue reading The 21st…

New doctor!!

Trigger warning ⚠️ eating disorder ⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️ I really love my new primary care doctor. She was so nice! Like awesome. I am a huge fan. That went really well and she listened to me and told me to put my scale away etc. It was good. I am happy with her. I had to get … Continue reading New doctor!!

Five

That’s how many hours of sleep I got. I woke up at 3:30 this morning, after fighting the clock for an hour, and finally decided to give up and just stay up. I am tired, but not sleepy. I think a few things conspired to make this happen. One, I drank more caffeine yesterday than … Continue reading Five