I went to breakfast with a friend this morning and she is sleeping right now like I should be. I am toast from the steroids they have me on from this allergic reaction, or from the reaction itself, not sure which. Anyway, I can’t sleep so I’m kind of planning out my day. Another friend … Continue reading Full of possibilities…
Every cloud has a silver lining, right? A couple of things: First, I had to meet with my professor today about the incomplete. It was this morning before I had found the steroids to take and I looked very rough. He didn’t ask any questions about what health condition(s) had led to me asking for … Continue reading Silver lining…
While I don’t feel as terrible as I did on Tuesday, I am still really grateful that I get to see my therapist today. I am still struggling with anxiety a lot and reeling a little from my visit to the emergency room. I talked to a friend today though, and talking to her reminded … Continue reading Whew. Therapy day.
Taking a day to put out fires and just relax. I’m thinking seriously about what my next steps are. Maybe I can do this grad program with a little bit of work on myself. Maybe I can’t. Maybe I can work a little job to start. Maybe I can’t. In any case, I’m just gonna … Continue reading Taking a day.
I mean, clearly I do or I wouldn’t be writing, but it’s very hard. I was flying so high yesterday after days of inadequate sleep and at the same time horrifically depressed and scared that I went to the local emergency room. I seriously probably just needed someone to come chill and talk to me, … Continue reading I have no words
If I start cleaning now, I will wake up the house. I’m so bored. I am trying to feed my brain with the news, but that is so depressing. I want to get moving on cleaning. Of course, none of my online friends are available because it’s 7am and they sleep or are already getting … Continue reading Waking people up
It’s me! I’m just being silly. I’m feeling that way because I got a whopping four hours of sleep last night. I was asleep by midnight, but I woke up at four like my hair was on fire. I’m not tired enough to go back to sleep. I don’t think this is going to end … Continue reading Guess whooo?
Yeah. So it turns out that when I used to get lost in a field of corn as a kid and had to figure out how to get back home, that was a blast. Getting lost in some preplanned maze? STRESSFUL as heck. Finally my anxiety took over and I went all “children of the … Continue reading Corn Maze: Update!
I talked a friend into going to a corn maze with me this afternoon. The weather is PERFECT for fall activities. I’m pretty excited. I like to get lost in corn fields, so this is a perfect activity for me! I really just need a break. Mom is very sick and I am so stressed … Continue reading Corn Maze!!!!
Down or up I do not know I never know Which way I’ll go. In my bed For weeks on end My comfy bed My only friend Then like a switch From somewhere deep Suddenly there’s no way For me to sleep I do not know What to expect Or if I’m ready For what … Continue reading Trepidation