Improved my day.

I did end up going to see Top Gun tonight. No spoilers, but it was fun and silly and I’m glad I went. I went to the cheap theatre, which is probably not really the cheapest since it’s like a half hour away, but their popcorn is $2 and their water bottles are a $1 … Continue reading Improved my day.

Overwhelmed by myself…

I need heavy machinery to dig out the mess I’ve made in my room. For real. Every time I get it a little cleaner, it is a mess again. I don’t even know where to start. I’m so overwhelmed. I don’t really feel well today. I’m totally exhausted for some reason, but I feel so … Continue reading Overwhelmed by myself…

I can’t stop

Trigger warning ⚠️ eating disorder ⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️ I ate some cherries at 4:30 this morning. They stayed down and I did okay with them. I counted them as my breakfast. I ate a Greek salad for lunch at 1:30 p.m. and I was a little less okay with that because of the feta on it, but … Continue reading I can’t stop

Crash and burn

What goes up, must come down. My fun hypomanic episode has come to an end. It had to of course, but I’m seriously bummed. I hate depression. The hopelessness and the feeling that it’s never going to end, even though I know realistically that it will. I’m just tired of the ride. People say that … Continue reading Crash and burn

Useless day

I decided. I feel like crap. I don’t know what to do with myself. I just feel gross. I need to clean my space and I need to take a shower. Neither of those things is probably happening today. I just feel unmotivated and not okay. I can’t go anywhere and do anything because of … Continue reading Useless day