Improved my day.

I did end up going to see Top Gun tonight. No spoilers, but it was fun and silly and I’m glad I went. I went to the cheap theatre, which is probably not really the cheapest since it’s like a half hour away, but their popcorn is $2 and their water bottles are a $1 …

Overwhelmed by myself…

I need heavy machinery to dig out the mess I’ve made in my room. For real. Every time I get it a little cleaner, it is a mess again. I don’t even know where to start. I’m so overwhelmed. I don’t really feel well today. I’m totally exhausted for some reason, but I feel so …

Maybe I’m doing nothing today…

My head hurts a little still from the migraine I had last night, and my stomach is definitely not recovered, so I might just be resting today. It’s supposed to be 90° and if you couldn’t tell by reading other posts on my blog, I don’t do heat. I really should be trying to clean …

What to do today?

I had a wicked migraine last night and I woke up today feeling a little iffy. I thought about going to the beach with a friend, but it’s super hot today and I think it would just destroy my stomach. Sooo… not sure what to do with myself today. I kind of want to see …

I can’t stop

Trigger warning ⚠️ eating disorder ⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️ I ate some cherries at 4:30 this morning. They stayed down and I did okay with them. I counted them as my breakfast. I ate a Greek salad for lunch at 1:30 p.m. and I was a little less okay with that because of the feta on it, but …

“Opposite Action”

There’s this thing in DBT called Opposite Action where you do the opposite of your emotion to try to change it. Today, I’m definitely trying to change the depression and anxiety that I was experiencing yesterday. I changed my sheets and I am washing (or rather drying now) my pillowcases. I made plans with a …

Maybe today will be better?

I am hoping for a better day today. I have a few things I need to take care of. I need to clean off my bed, (and put the stuff somewhere), so that I can change the sheets. I probably will put most of the crap back on the bed when I’m done because I …

Crash and burn

What goes up, must come down. My fun hypomanic episode has come to an end. It had to of course, but I’m seriously bummed. I hate depression. The hopelessness and the feeling that it’s never going to end, even though I know realistically that it will. I’m just tired of the ride. People say that …

Can today move any slower?

Time is crawling today. I just want to call it a day. I literally have nothing to do that I want to do. Seriously. I could keep watching Schitt’s Creek for the third time I guess. It would be something. It makes me laugh. I don’t know. I’m just moody. Like everything crashed and I …

Useless day

I decided. I feel like crap. I don’t know what to do with myself. I just feel gross. I need to clean my space and I need to take a shower. Neither of those things is probably happening today. I just feel unmotivated and not okay. I can’t go anywhere and do anything because of …