So tired of being afraid

I’m so tired of being afraid of covid. I definitely don’t want it. It would probably make me really sick. I need to get my booster, but I’m uncomfortable being in a crowded place to get it. I don’t know. I have been in my house pretty much solidly for weeks and now I don’t …

Exhausted? Depressed? Just recovering?

I haven’t been posting because I’ve been sleeping. Literally. All. The. Time. I don’t know if it’s because I’ve been in recovery mode from the crud I had, or if I am depressed somehow, (I don’t feel depressed though), or if I am just plain exhausted from the last couple of months, but whatever it …

So tired of this!

I’ve been sick for over a week. It’s not covid or the flu, it’s just some stupid virus like a cold. A bad cold. I have been laid out in my bed for the entire week with whatever this is. I’m just exhausted. I feel like I got hit by a truck. It sucks. I’m …

Dodged another bullet!

My cousin is sick, but doesn’t have covid. That means I don’t have covid. I mean, I’m not sick, but still. I really didn’t want it. So yeah. Good news for me! (And her). I am a little frustrated that I made my therapy appointment virtual today, but it was probably good since I am …

Feeling SUPER disgusting today.

This isn’t me, but it could be. I am so heavy now and I’m so out of shape it’s not even a joke. I spent most of the summer in bed and I didn’t really do anything so I don’t have the energy to do much now. Going up and down the stairs at home …

Couldn’t sleep

I slept like crap. I can’t figure out why I couldn’t sleep. I woke up so early yesterday and I should have been tired. I fell asleep almost right away, but I couldn’t stay that way. I hate that! I am actually slightly worried about it because I’ve been giddy and weird for a day …

I hate the dishes.

This is literally my face when I realized I had to do dishes tonight. I hate them. My friend who doesn’t feel well did most of them, so I’m an even bigger loser for not taking care of them sooner. I seriously hate them, though. Like… Gollum hates hobbitses. Oh well. I guess I will …

Unproductive day.

I can’t stop them. I’m experiencing wicked anxiety and I just sort of froze today. I didn’t get anything done. I feel sort of like a turtle hiding in his shell. I just can’t get out of it. I’m really having a hard time. I needed to wrap presents today and do laundry, but neither …

Wind and snow!

It’s very windy outside and now it’s snowing! It is decidedly headache weather. I feel super gross. I really just want to curl up into a ball and give up today. Honestly, even if it weren’t for the headache, I think I’m just depressed. I feel awful. I have no energy and I just want …

I feel like an idiot

I called the coaching line because I was feeling overwhelmed today. The person who called me back from that line literally talked to me for three minutes and told me to eat dinner and take a bath. She was not exceptionally helpful. Like at all. I actually like this person, but she can be abrupt …