I don’t like…

...DBT diary cards. I liked my old mood charts, but the diary cards are kind of like... meh. I guess it’s because they don’t track what’s important to me on them. I’m thinking about redoing them on excel and presenting the alternative ones to my therapist. I will leave most of what the DBT ones … Continue reading I don’t like…

Dread.

It’s DBT group time and I’m completely dreading it. It’s not that I hate it, I just don’t want to sit in front of my computer for two hours. I’m over doing things virtually. Over it. So whatever. It is what it is. Look at me practicing radical acceptance. Sigh. Image from Pexels.

Out…

I’m seriously trying not to make this face during DBT group. I’m mostly checking out during the whole thing. Like, I have no idea what people just said. I’m bored out of my mind. Virtual group is worse than real group and I am struggling. I am not loving it. It’s two hours of pain. … Continue reading Out…

Planning.

I met with one of the social workers at the place where I’m going to do DBT today to do my treatment plan. Fun stuff. I don’t really enjoy that process, and I suspect the social workers don’t really love it either. I mean, it’s helpful and useful and good, but it’s not especially entertaining. … Continue reading Planning.

Band…

And the band keeps marching on... I’m a one hit wonder these days. I apologize. Gee, I wonder what her blog will be about today? Could it be that she’s so anxious she’s climbing walls? Possibly. Could it be devastating depression? Likely. I am so bored with myself, it’s unreal. I don’t have anywhere else … Continue reading Band…

Intake.

So... I did the DBT intake. Surprise surprise I don’t meet the criteria for borderline. I dunno. They told me I still would benefit from it and I could still do it. I’m a little bummed that the “class” part is virtual because I wanted the structure of going somewhere, but whatever. They said I … Continue reading Intake.

Thing.

I did a thing. I told the crisis team that I would do DBT. I told them I hated it, but that I thought it was the next best step. My mentor always told me that she thought it would be a good idea for me. I argued with her a lot about it, but … Continue reading Thing.

RO-DBT?

My therapist wants to start RO-DBT with me on an individual basis next week. I'm starting to do research on it and I am looking for people who have experience with it. For those as clueless as I was this morning, it's Radically Open Dialetical Behavior Therapy, but it's not really like traditional DBT from … Continue reading RO-DBT?

Open-Mindedness

I've been spending a lot of time with this, and I'm working hard at not coming to a conclusion before all of the conversations have been had, but I really don't think DBT is appropriate for me.  I know why people think it is. I get it. I know what I outwardly present like in … Continue reading Open-Mindedness