Need to find my motivation…

My motivation seems to be about as lacking as the rain has been over the past couple weeks. I guess part of it is that I don’t feel 100% and also that it is, as I’ve said, so darn hot. Just sizzling out there. It just sucks my energy dry as soon as I step … Continue reading Need to find my motivation…

Giving up fear…

Choosing to clean may look like an weird way to express giving up fear, but hear me out. My bedroom has been a disaster area for a year. At least. For that year, I have been in and out of the hospital more times than I can count with pancreatitis. It’s gotten so bad that … Continue reading Giving up fear…

Done for today

I am toast. I met with my dietican and she was amazing per usual. She helped me come up with a plan for eating when I just can’t deal. I needed that. I’m just worn out. I think I’m depressed. I really think I need a solitary vacay. I don’t know when I’m going to … Continue reading Done for today

19 hours

I slept for 19 hours and I still feel kinda gross. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I went and got my labs done Thursday and they were back to normal so it isn’t that. I just feel… worn down and my stomach feels topsy turvy. Just upside down. I’m not a fan. I … Continue reading 19 hours