I actually went to sleep around midnight last night and woke up at 8 ish this morning. I am more tired than I have been in the last few days, and I'm not sure what that is about, but at least I got some rest. My head continues to hurt as well, but it isn't … Continue reading Midnight



I feel kind of like an idiot. It's been a difficult day in a way. Therapy was good, and not really overly emotional today, but I have anxiety about putting the things she said into practice. I also have been struggling with this headache and not really coping with that well. I have had a … Continue reading Stupid


I spent therapy today discussing my paranoia stuff about people breaking in. My therapist had some suggestions and homework for how to deal with those feelings and thoughts if they come again. I have to admit that shoving my face in a bowl of ice water is just anathema to me. It's not that it … Continue reading Invaders


A combination of anxiety and the monster energy drink I drank to try to get rid of my headache is keeping me awake. Still. I am frustrated that I cannot seem to go to sleep any night this week at a reasonable hour. It's getting to me. I don't know really how to handle tonight. … Continue reading Still


It's 1:30 A.M. and I'm sitting awake and in tears because I have the old fears of someone breaking in. I don't know why I have this happen. No one, other than possibly last year, has ever tried to break into anywhere I've lived or visited, so I don't have a rational explanation for this … Continue reading Terror