Mistake.

I think I messed up. I mean, I screw up on the regular, so I'm not even sure which time I'm talking about. I just think I did. I should have known better. I should have tried harder. I shouldn't have been so weak. I should have been smarter. I should have... But I didn't. … Continue reading Mistake.

Tide

Her soul is weary from battles waged, and she grows tired as she's aged. The sun is devoid of all its light, and she cannot see any of the bright. Darkness blankets her like a foggy sky, and she cannot stop the tears she cries. When the sun is gone and the moon is set, … Continue reading Tide

Flashlight 🔦

Ponytail giving away how much The body has lost its care. Wrinkles and folds line the clothing everywhere. An active mind gone blank Lost in space. Tee shirt catching water From a tear-stained face. Fear rules over each new choice and move. Old scars and wounds Are hard to soothe. Blackness replaces every moment That … Continue reading Flashlight 🔦

Hope (A Poem)

Holding on for another day Hoping that there's another way Through the darkness that consumes the light And only seems to dissipate at night With the unconsciousness of sleep and dreaming Even though during daylight my mind is teaming With thoughts from everywhere about everything And even the walls are beginning to sing Maybe I'm … Continue reading Hope (A Poem)

Writing

I haven't written any poetry for a long time. I'm not sure why that is. I think it's because I usually am in a specific mood state when it seems to flow the best, and I haven't been in that in quite some tome now. I actually don't know if that's a bad thing. I … Continue reading Writing

Should

Sitting alone lost in my thoughts, I sit here and think things I probably should not. Fear has a grip and I know it's not it's not wise, To contemplate all of the things I despise In myself when I look in the mirror and see, All of the things that are just not to … Continue reading Should

Anxiety

Tossing and turning all night, clenching my jaw tight. The tears could fill a well, and the wish I would tell, is peace for my soul, instead of this endless hole, of vibrating madness, combined with frustrating sadness. I can feel my brain jerk and twitch, 'cause anxiety really is a bitch. Older original art … Continue reading Anxiety

Alone

I have been by myself a lot lately. It sucks. I don't do very well when I'm alone. I get lonely and binge on bad food and run out of healthy things to do. I hate it. I don't really know what the solution is-except for stuff my case manager and therapist suggest- and I'm … Continue reading Alone

Midnight

Another day filled with dread while inside I just feel dead. Mind racing with thoughts like midnight and I feel so far from the light. Pain so raw I feel flayed from my head to my toes and I can't know how long this goes. My mind is split side by side and I am … Continue reading Midnight

Dr. Seuss

My partner had this book. It's amazing. It seriously makes me wonder whether Dr. Seuss was bipolar... I completely relate to the color thing, so this book, while it's a children's book, is possibly my new favorite thing. I'm pasting the whole thing below: I hope you enjoyed it as much as I did.