It’s a wrap

As the last of the light disappears below the horizon, I can definitely say it’s been a day. I volunteered snd it was terrifying, but better then I thought. I saw an old friend and that was good for my soul. I took an emotional nose dive later in the day, probably because of all … Continue reading It’s a wrap

Still not okay

I don’t know why I’m so depressed. I just am. It just is. I’m tired of fighting it all of the time, so I’ve decided it just is. I was doing better for a while. I was even kind of okay. Maybe I was just kidding myself though. I’m super not okay again. Whatever. Original … Continue reading Still not okay

In the shower…

I just almost had a panic attack right in the middle of my shower. I was inhaling water. It was awesome. I had to lean on the walls so I didn’t fall down. I’ve never had that happen before in there. It was terrifying. I’m still trying to recover. I even took my anxiety meds … Continue reading In the shower…

Like a rock

I was so tired I slept solid for eleven hours. I am not sure I got my meds in last night though. I think I passed out before I took them because I was so tired. Oh well. I’m exhausted still, honestly. It’s a bone deep kind of emotional exhaustion from too much stress. I … Continue reading Like a rock

Cycle

It’s scary how many times I’ve been here before. Bruised, bloody, beaten. Pieces of my heart scattered over the floor. Balancing the tightrope between life and death. “I can’t continue anymore.” Yet, something strange happens every time deep within my core. I crawl, stumble stagger and wobble until suddenly I soar. Older original art by … Continue reading Cycle

Good and Bad

Today was everything. It was amazing and fun and I really enjoyed it, and it was terrible and sad and scary and I cried way too much. The terrible crying part didn’t ruin the day, though. It was just part of it. I think heartbreak and sadness are a natural part of life, and people … Continue reading Good and Bad