Fence

I'm sitting on the fence today on whether I want to be productive, or whether I just want to wallow in this miserable mood I find myself in. There are definitely things I should be doing. I kind of don't want to. I know I will feel better if I do them. I really kind …

Nightmares

I had nightmares last night and woke up hysterical. It took me a solid hour to calm down. I am not really a fan. I can't tell you all that I dreamed about at this point, thankfully I have forgotten most of it, I just know they were bad and scared me. I hate when …

Sleepy 💤

I'm exhausted. While I got reasonable sleep last night, I'm still kind of running on a sleep deficit and I'm not sure if I'm getting a migraine or not, so I'm just flat out miserable. It's adding to the mix to make me extra anxious, (my jaw actually hurts from how much I'm clenching it), …

Woozy 🥴

I feel like I'm spinning. I don't really know why. I just don't feel well. My head kind of hurts and my stomach is upset. I'm supposed to have therapy today, but honestly I don't think I can make it. I feel very guilty. I'm trying to work out in my head how I can …

Turnover

My little car, (NOT an actual picture), does not like the extreme cold we are getting right now. It barely turns over. I did get it to start this morning, and I'm letting it run for a while, but I think something is wrong with a battery connection or something because it died last year …

Snowball!

It's been snowing all day. There's easily four inches on the ground and it's the good kind of "packing" snow. If I had the right kind of snow gear, I'd go build a snowman. Unfortunately, I'm pretty sure he'd get buried under the additional 4-6 inches we are supposed to get later on. Weather events …

Quiet…

I've been quiet for a couple of days which I know is not the best idea for a blogger. My great-aunt passed away and it made me miss my grandma even more than usual. Tomorrow also would have been one of my best friend's 60th birthday. He died, for those who don't know, of a …

Reminder…

Quote: Don't give up on the person you are becoming. I needed this.

Uncertain

I have to be honest. I talk a good game, but I have no idea if I'm ready to go back to work. The closer the reality of that gets, the more I'm like... nah. I can't do that. I'm not really worried about school. Maybe because it's far enough away. Work though... woah. I …

Leaves!

It's fall and there are leaves everywhere! I saw a meme about how trees drop their leaves and go through cycles of rebirth and so do we and I thought it was poetic. My case manager has me set for graduation from case management sometime in the spring and I hope I'm ready. I'm really …