The 10th…

A favorite memory? I think, while again it is incredibly difficult to choose, I’ll try to pick just the one… I pick birthdays with my mom as a kid for my favorite “together time.” She made yummy snacks that most moms didn’t the patience for, and was into making everything a teachable moment. Really though, …

I am grateful

I have a friend who is very impressionable and easy to manipulate. This got this person into a bunch of trouble, including losing their kids, and I was terribly angry with them for a while. Upon learning the extent of the situation, I realized that my friend, while culpable, was also a victim. I have …

Five

That’s how many hours of sleep I got. I woke up at 3:30 this morning, after fighting the clock for an hour, and finally decided to give up and just stay up. I am tired, but not sleepy. I think a few things conspired to make this happen. One, I drank more caffeine yesterday than …

Therapy was so helpful today

I am so glad I had therapy today. I talked to her about being in the hospital and how I basically just disassociated to survive being in there. She was glad I got out when I did because she agreed with me that I probably would have just gotten worse had I stayed in there. …

Diagnosis: Mixed

I just realized today that the psychiatrist at the hospital diagnosed me as being in a severe mixed episode without psychotic features. Seriously. That man does not know what a mixed episode looks like I promise. I am not mixed. I know when I am mixed. I am absolutely miserable when I am that way …

Running errands this morning…

…and gas is like $5.20 a gallon so it costs money just to think about going somewhere. At the same time, a friend needs help with something this morning and I need to go out and get a couple of things, so I guess it has to happen. I am glad I have things to …

So. Much. Laundry.

This is not a current picture of my clean laundry. I got home from the hospital and had barely a load of laundry from being there to do. Then I realized I had three or four loads of laundry in my room that needed to be done, so I did those too. Now I have …

Five years!!!!!

I can’t believe I have had this blog for five years!!!! Five years of rambling and wandering. Thanks for joining me on the ride whether you are new here or old. I love you all!!!

Questionable today…

I woke up tired. I hate that. I had dreams all night long because I’m really anxious about therapy today. Not only do I have to eat something triggering with her, I also have to talk to her about how I am afraid to call coaching now. I know one of her staff from a …

Did kind of a crappy job

Trigger warning ⚠️ substances ⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️ I did not do a good job of reigning in the hypomanic thing today. Instead I got super drunk with my friend on tequila and got super sick. Yay me. I’m finally mostly sober and regretting this decision. I got sick like four times and had to clean the bathroom …