Day 65

... Really. I'm just tired. It's just another day in locked down Michigan. Nothing new to report. I need to take a shower tonight. I need to do laundry. I need to clean. I need to finish up some other things to work on finding a new therapist... I know I said I needed a … Continue reading Day 65

Day 64

Last year at this time, I was here. It's a beautiful place in Michigan known as pictured rocks. Everything is still pretty much closed so it's hard to find a hotel up north, (I checked), so going up there isn't really feasible yet. All of the campgrounds are also closed, so there isn't really anywhere … Continue reading Day 64

Day 61

So because our governor believes we are idiots who can't take care of ourselves, she has extended the stay at home order until June 12 or something. Awesome. We are now allowed to meet in groups of less than ten and the upper peninsula and northern Michigan is open for business, but the rest of … Continue reading Day 61

Sicko.

Okay. For real. My freaking side hurts. I saw my doctor today and he ordered labs and my pancreatic enzymes are more than seven times the normal value. They gave me an option of doing a CT scan today or waiting until Friday to see where the levels were then, but I really don't want … Continue reading Sicko.

Joy.

It's just the kind of day to sit in the backyard with my friend's dog and blow bubbles. It's so pretty! I'm not manic, but I am simply happy. Its been honestly a really long time since I've been able to pinpoint "joy." Sure, there are things that are bothersome to me, and everything is … Continue reading Joy.

Sunny.

It's a beautiful day in the neighborhood... It's so nice outside!!!!!! I'm so happy! I just want to sit outside in the sun and soak it all up! Yay! I am not exactly sure what's happening today yet, but I know I'm spending part of my day outside. Inhale....exhale.... Finally. It's SPRING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I haven't really … Continue reading Sunny.

Gross.

Okay. I have no idea how many layers of dirt I had caked on me, but I washed them off this morning in the shower. I looked. It had been a freaking week. YUCK. I really need to get better about this. Quarantine or no quarantine. I don't really have an excuse. I mean, I … Continue reading Gross.

Advice.

I got some good advice today. I always think that good advice is like a precious gift. You can't put a pice on it's value. I was worried about my med review next week and this person told me that it's about me and it's okay to say that I need a minute to answer … Continue reading Advice.

Duke.

"My recovery has been an evolution, not a sudden miracle" -Patty Duke I love this because it reminds me to take care of myself and also that it's okay if every day isn't perfect. I had plans to clean and shower today and I don't know if either is going to happen, but it's okay. … Continue reading Duke.

Therapists.

I've had nightmare experiences with therapists over the years. I had a newbie one tell me that I was "too mentally ill" for her to take on. I had one tell me that I was "beyond her level of care" after I pissed off her friend, (in a super long and ridiculous story). I had … Continue reading Therapists.