I absolutely know people mean the best, but I really hate dealing with the, “I know they are going to find an answer soon…” thing when it comes to the pancreatitis crap I’m living through.
It’s apparent that answer is NOT coming soon, nor is it possibly EVER coming, and I’m really just in the process of accepting that.
It’s super frustrating to have to feel like I’m letting other people down by saying, “well, I don’t know when the answers are coming, if at all.” So instead, I say, “thanks,” because that is what society has trained me to say.
It’s soul crushing, though. I mean, I can’t really talk about how I feel and how frustrated I am with this, now chronic, illness because people don’t want to hear that. They just want optimism and rainbows. I can’t really provide those things in this moment.
So, thanks? That’s the best I’ve got.
I’m sorry if this seems ungrateful. I so don’t mean it to be. It’s just…it is what it is.