I would show you an actual picture of mine, but frankly, it was not anywhere near as pretty as this one. Ha!
Trigger warning ⚠️ eating disorder content!!
I mixed nonfat Greek yogurt, skim milk (I used to do almond milk when I was in the throes of my ED, but I’m trying to get nutrition IN my body at this point), frozen blueberries, frozen mangoes, and a banana with some fresh spinach.
It was NOT pretty, but it tasted good. I am praying it doesn’t make me sick.
I am kind of eating like I did when I was really bad with my ED, but I would have used less fruit etc. I don’t know how else to survive with this pancreatitis crap. It’s like literally the worst.
I’m trying not to fall down the rabbit hole. Really. I did put batteries in my bathroom scale and weigh myself though. That was probably not the smartest. I saw that I was only 6lbs off my lowest weight of the year, and earlier this year I dropped 50 lbs in a hurry and ended up in treatment. So… yeah.
Don’t worry, my weight is not too low. I easily have double that much to lose before I am “underweight,” but it may be surprising to some to read that it is possible to be overweight with an ED.
Anyway, I was proud of myself for eating something other than a banana and soup. It is scary because I won’t know for an hour or two if I will be sick, but at least I stepped out of my comfort zone.
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