Trigger warning ⚠️ eating disorder
I really love my new primary care doctor. She was so nice! Like awesome. I am a huge fan.
That went really well and she listened to me and told me to put my scale away etc. It was good.
I am happy with her.
I had to get vaccinated for hepatitis A because my gastroenterologist is worried about protecting my liver, so she made sure that got done today too.
The vaccine kind of made me feel gross though and I came home and ate my usual tiny lunch and then waited a while and still felt awful.
I decided I should have probably eaten something a little more substantial so I made some macaroni and cheese.
Then I ate the whole box.
I am so gross.
I wasn’t even hungry. I don’t know why I did that. I feel so sick now it’s not funny.
I’m resolute on not purging because I have the last two nights on small dinners and I’m choosing to live with this dumb choice today.
I literally will not step on a scale for the next two days because of it and I am supposed to go two days this week without weighing anyway.
Glad I have a nice doctor though. One who is kind, thorough and listens.
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