Diagnosis: Mixed

I just realized today that the psychiatrist at the hospital diagnosed me as being in a severe mixed episode without psychotic features.

Seriously.

That man does not know what a mixed episode looks like I promise.

I am not mixed. I know when I am mixed.

I am absolutely miserable when I am that way and generally suicidal as all get out.

Not to mention severe? Right.

Am I hypomanic? Yes. A little irritable because of that sometimes? Yup.

I only lost my crap once in the hospital though, and that’s when the recreational therapist let the patients pick the music and they picked Limp Bizkit. Now, I like rock every now and again, but screaming metal in a small-ish room with twenty people is not okay.

I did walk out of that group and get mad and shed about four minutes worth of tears. Literally that was all I cried in four days. Frustration tears. I was angry.

That hospital was such a joke. SUCH a joke.

Anyway, yeah. I am so happy I see MY psych next week.

So grateful.

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6 thoughts on “Diagnosis: Mixed

  1. I wonder how much chaos (trying to be polite by using the word chaos) happens behind closed doors that we never see. I’m glad that you are home and made it through the racket.

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    1. Well, I wasn’t hospitalized for psych. I was hospitalized for an eating disorder. Unfortunately, I didn’t meet with a dietician until four days into my stay.

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