I scream…

Trigger warning ⚠️ eating disorder

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I went to my cousin’s son’s high school graduation party tonight and I thought I handled the food situation okay.

I ate one chicken taco and a tiny bit of rice.

I really didn’t eat much else today, so it was okay.

BUT THEN…

…my parents decided to walk down the street to the ice cream shop so “we could all get ice cream as a family.”

I got a little kid cone and thought I could do it.

I was so violently ill by the time we got home, I threw up three times.

It wasn’t even purging. It was that I was literally sick from the ice cream. I haven’t really eaten anything that rich in months and I certainly haven’t eaten that much sugar. I was so sick.

As soon as it was out of me I felt so much better.

Maybe it was anxiety too. I was pretty stressed about eating it…

I don’t know.

I do know that it was not okay and that I’m not doing that again.

Ugh.

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