Kind of numb.
I don’t know. I don’t think tonight is a great night.
I forced dinner down my throat when I wasn’t even hungry because I don’t want my dietican to send me to the hospital.
That was super hard. I feel sick.
I took my meds early hoping I would go back to sleep early, but so far, no dice.
I’m sleepy, just not asleep.
Partly because I feel so sick.
I’m trying to drink water to combat it.
I have church in the morning and if I don’t go to that, I know tomorrow will just be another wasted day.
That only fills my morning though. I will have to come up with an activity for the afternoon. I really need to clean, but man I do not want to at all.
Maybe tomorrow will be different. I don’t know.
I’m just on the strugglebus today.
I tried listening to music. I tried watching something, (total mess because I couldn’t focus). I tried sleeping the day away, and that honestly helped, but I feel guilty about it.
So anyway, yeah.
Just not a happy camper.
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aww so sorry your feeling so bad! Sending love and hugs ❤
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Thanks! I fell asleep. It was okay. I am awake for church… ❤️
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For some reason, the night before I had to go to work at the church were the worst for me. Sunday mornings my hair was frayed and standing on end. I had every reason to be irritable at church when I got there. I managed to make it through my workday, but I wasn’t loving it.
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I’m sorry. That just sounds like a terrible experience.
I love my church. I am excited to go. I sometimes have issues being trapped in one space for an hour, but that can happen to me anywhere. I’m looking forward to today’s message so I think it will be okay.
I just was having a bad night. The joys of mental illness.
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