I don’t know if I can do church today…

This is an accurate representation of what anxiety looked like when I woke up.

I am not sure I can force myself into the shower, (a necessary thing before church), and get myself to church today.

First, it’s Mother’s Day here and and I am already panicking about dinner later and I kind of just want to calm myself down this morning. I don’t know, maybe church would help with that, but I feel like someone is going to be making comments about what a nice day it is to grill out etc.

Second, while normally I don’t want children and I’m perfectly content with my decision to have the hysterectomy, Mother’s Day kind of sucks and the whole sermon will be about mothers. I love mine, but she doesn’t go to church with me so…

Third, I just don’t feel like I can. Period. I might watch it on Facebook.

So yeah. Just having a tough morning. I have an hour to figure it out. Maybe by then it won’t be so dramatic and I can get myself there. I don’t know.


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