I ate breakfast…

Trigger warning ⚠️ for eating disorder

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I had oatmeal at the restaurant for breakfast.

It was the only heathy(ish) thing on the menu.

I put like a tiny splash of milk and probably a teaspoon of brown sugar in it to make it edible, but I didn’t get all of that because I didn’t eat the whole bowl.

For real the bowl was huge. Like a soup bowl, but bigger. Kind of like an oversized cereal bowl. Definitely too big for oatmeal that was thick as mud.

So anyway, I had to resist the urge to lose breakfast all the way home. The only thing that saved me was that it was early Saturday morning and I didn’t want to pull over on the side of the road and look like I was someone who was still intoxicated from the night before…

Honestly. Like I would drink at this point. Do you know how many calories are in booze?

Anyway, I drank coffee and two glasses of water (yay me), so I guess I have to be good somewhere. At least I’m not restricting fluids anymore as well.

I really want to navigate my way around today without having to eat much. I definitely am not eating lunch and I will see about dinner.

Last night was really challenging for me emotionally for reasons I don’t want to get into right now, but I think that’s what is making this so much worse.

I dunno.

How do you decide to recover?

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