I cried at church…

…and it wasn’t because of the message.

I started feeling trapped. That hasn’t happened in a long time. I just started having a panic attack in the middle of the service.

I don’t think anyone noticed, so that’s good, but it felt terrible.

I like church. I don’t know what’s wrong with me.

I just felt like it was going in slow motion and I was never going to get out of there.

I think maybe it could have been the giant cup of coffee I picked up in the church lobby. I haven’t been drinking caffeine lately. Maybe it was that.

I don’t know.

It was awful.

It just triggered a lot of depressive thoughts and things I didn’t need in that moment. It kind of made it worse to be honest. Thank goodness the room was dark.


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4 thoughts on “I cried at church…

    1. It was really hard and kind of beautiful at the same time because today was baptism day so that helped distract me and bring me back around.


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