Trauma response…

…to taking a new med. Yes, I know. Seems a little overboard. The thing to know is that so many meds have sent me to the emergency room with really awful reactions that I was terrified this one would as well.

Turns out it just made me sleepy and a little flat.

It might have also made me kind of itchy, OR that could have just been anxiety. I’ll know better tomorrow.

The point here is that I had a total breakdown over taking this med and it was unwarranted. That doesn’t mean it was invalid based on my past experience, it just means that nothing bad happened this time.

I am lucky that I can call people to help me walk through these episodes so that they don’t spin out of control.

I am a little concerned about the “flat” part, (I’m assuming the “tired” part will wear off in a matter of a week or so), because I’m not interested in a med that turns me into a zombie.

I mean, helping depression is one thing, but if it helps by making me not feel anything, that’s kind of ridiculous. Well, I still feel horrifically depressed so I guess I don’t feel “flat,” but I do feel “flattened.” I don’t have the ambition to do anything and I don’t feel like “me.” I don’t know how else to describe it. It’s not fun.

I don’t know. The jury is still out and probably will be for a week or two. We’ll see.

In the meantime, I’m still alive.

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2 thoughts on “Trauma response…

  1. its normal that you had a trauma response to taking the meds, if you’ve had very hard experiences in the past with certain meds. I don’t blame you for going into a meltdown. I would have too! Sending love, and a hug! Xx

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