I am meeting with a vocational coach tomorrow.
I absolutely don’t think I’m ready.
I need time to grieve and clean up my mess of a life at home, let alone attempt some kind of job.
I mean, I’m all for setting myself up to fail, but really. I honestly don’t think I can handle any more failure at the moment.
I tried to put this meeting off, but if I don’t meet with her now, then it’s like I guess I’m not allowed to meet with her ever? I didn’t really understand, but it is what it is.
I’m pretty sure I’m just going to cry.
I have a resume. It’s pretty damn empty from 2008 on.
I mean, I’ve had professionals make it look good. It definitely looks good. It’s just… vacant.
I’m going to meet with her because maybe she can help.
There’s just been a lot of trauma. A lot. I am depressed and hate everything right now. I’m also scared of my own shadow.
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