Have to admit to being depressed.

I have therapy today, thank goodness.

I don’t really want to admit to being depressed. I fight so hard not to be. It doesn’t matter though.

I am.

I don’t think I’m desperately depressed at the moment, but it’s enough to interfere significantly with my daily functioning.

I couldn’t get myself to physical therapy today. I just couldn’t. I needed to.

I needed to get into the shower. I didn’t.

I did get out of the house for a moment. That helped.

I am overwhelmed by personal situations and by world events.

I feel like part of it is also the ghost of the Cold War which I remember clearly, and the fear as a child of being nuked in my home or school and feeling powerless to do anything about it.

Now I feel angry.

This war in Ukraine is more than I can imagine. Maybe it’s the rise of social media bringing the war directly to my newsfeed, but it’s so much different feeling than other wars I’ve witnessed in the past.

I don’t know.

Everything feels messy.

Whatever.

Just need therapy today.

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