So tired of being afraid

I’m so tired of being afraid of covid. I definitely don’t want it. It would probably make me really sick. I need to get my booster, but I’m uncomfortable being in a crowded place to get it.

I don’t know.

I have been in my house pretty much solidly for weeks and now I don’t want to go anywhere.

It’s like I suddenly have agoraphobia. I don’t really understand where it came from. I guess maybe from being so sick at the end of December with a bug and not wanting to be sicker with covid.

I’m still wiped out. I am still lacking energy. I am still so tired. All I really want to do is sleep.

I might be a little depressed I guess. I don’t really feel depressed in the traditional sense. At least not in my traditional sense. Other than the sleeping and that is a physical need because I just feel tired. It’s not an avoidance thing, it’s an exhaustion thing.

I am kind of overwhelmed by my mom and my friends and my family needing me and not having the energy to meet my own basic needs let alone theirs.

It is a problem.

Whatever. I have therapy tomorrow. I guess I will figure out some of that then.

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