I’m throwing in the towel.
I honestly can’t.
It’s like there is a giant wall between me and the requirements left for this class. I can’t even begin to fathom how I am going to get started. I can’t focus.
On top of that, every day someone needs me for something that I don’t feel like I can say no to. Even if I did, I would need the next 10 days open to fix this mess and have the motivation to do it, which I just don’t have.
I don’t think I belong in the career path I was pursuing anyway. Maybe I do. I just don’t know that I am well enough to do it.
When I fail this class I will pretty much blow my chances of ever doing this again anyway. I can’t imagine another graduate program being very sympathetic to a failing grade in an introductory course.
It’s okay. I need some time to figure some things out I think.
It just makes me physically ill is all. And angry. I’m so angry with my friend for making the choice she made. It had so many repercussions. I am responsible for my own crap, but it really messed up several weeks of my life and I’m not coping with it well.
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