I pretty sure I’m going to fail

I took an incomplete for my class that I was in because of mental health issues.

I thought at the time that I would be able to complete the required assignments in the time allotted.

That was until my friend did what she did and totally upended my world.

Now, I’m anxious about everything and she calls multiple times a day and I don’t get a break and it’s thanksgiving tomorrow and I just don’t know how, in the next week and a half, I’m going to make this happen.

I am pretty sure I’m just going to fail the class.

It’s like two major papers and two meetings with my professor and an exam. I honestly don’t think my anxiety can take it.

I think I’ll fold.

It will screw so many things up, but I kind of feel backed into a corner.

I don’t know.

Not having therapy this week is not helping.

So yeah. 

I feel like a giant loser, but I don’t know what else to do. Working on the class work makes me physically ill at this point and I can’t concentrate anyway.

It’s a mess.

I am just not okay with it. I don’t know. I feel like I am dooming myself to a future I don’t want.

Whatever. It is what it is.

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