I used to paint a pumpkin teal every year and do the teal pumpkin project for food allergy awareness.
I would put together baggies of non food treats like glow necklaces, stickers, etc and pass them out all night.
I didn’t do that this year and it made Halloween kind of suck.
I just wasn’t in the spirit at all.
I haven’t been okay.
I feel bad. I passed out candy for an hour and a half and then I turned the light off. I just couldn’t do it.
I am tired and it’s too hard to fake smiles at all of these kids and their parents.
I am just bummed.
I usually get into the holidays starting with Halloween. I like this time of year. I like making other people happy.
I just can’t. I just can’t get into it.
I am mad at myself. I am mad that I didn’t pass out candle longer. I am mad that I didn’t carve a pumpkin or do something with my little cousins. I am mad that I didn’t do really anything.
Old photo by me.