I used to paint a pumpkin teal every year and do the teal pumpkin project for food allergy awareness.

I would put together baggies of non food treats like glow necklaces, stickers, etc and pass them out all night.

I didn’t do that this year and it made Halloween kind of suck.

I just wasn’t in the spirit at all.

I haven’t been okay.

I feel bad. I passed out candy for an hour and a half and then I turned the light off. I just couldn’t do it.

I am tired and it’s too hard to fake smiles at all of these kids and their parents.

I am just bummed.

I usually get into the holidays starting with Halloween. I like this time of year. I like making other people happy.

I just can’t. I just can’t get into it.

I am mad at myself. I am mad that I didn’t pass out candle longer. I am mad that I didn’t carve a pumpkin or do something with my little cousins. I am mad that I didn’t do really anything.


This sucks.

Old photo by me.

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