I just feel like crap.
I have this paper due and I’m all at once caring too much and not at all.
No matter what it has to get done, and if I turn it in late I lose a letter grade, so I really just need to do it.
I’m already sick of this program and the ten thousand rules and the lack of accommodations because it is a private school and they can get away with it.
I’m seriously considering transferring to an in-person program at a state school.
Maybe it’s just because I’m trying to run away again. But I do want to do the program. I’m just not sure this is the right one either.
I hate everything right now so I’m not making any decisions.
I just.. I need to try to be okay with being here.
I’m just super depressed. I was bottling everything until last week thinking I was going to be able to deal with it all with my therapist. Like she was a magical fairy or something. I didn’t realize how bad things were either. I had shelved so many things and they are now biting me in the butt.
I’m in tears already today. It’s just not the best way to start my day.
Older original art by me.