Kind of off

My mood is just… off. I’m not entirely sure what is going on.

I’m inclined to say it’s just anxiety from school and from the lack of therapy for the past month. I really rely of therapy for processing and I haven’t had that.

Don’t get me wrong, the validation part of therapy is nice too, but I do a lot of processing there and even afterwards, and I haven’t really been doing that these past few weeks. It’s taken it’s toll.

I am just a little… up and down. I don’t think I’m mixed. I know what that feels like. I’m not crawling out of my skin and dealing with a fire hose of racing thoughts. I’m just… really uncomfortable.

It’s almost like I’m so anxious that it’s triggering these ten minute mini mood swings. I don’t drop super low or super high. I’m not euphoric or desperately depressed. I’m just kind of giggly or tearful. Just for a few minutes and then I’m okay again…except I’m still anxious.

This anxiety has been around for a few weeks so I don’t think it’s just this week of class.

I mean, I guess it could be the new antidepressant, but that seems highly unlikely. That seems to have really broken the water barrier and finally given me some air from the constant depression I was living with.

So I don’t know.

I have my med review tomorrow and there are so many things to cover. This anxiety, my eating issues, school, etc.

I’m kind of nervous about that too.

I wish I had a better handle on this mood thing. It would be easier to explain to her if I knew what was going on.

Oh well.

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