So mom laughed

I told my mom about breaking the chair at the fair thing (see previous post), and she literally laughed at me.

That did not help.

I have been really struggling with my body image for, well forever really, but recently it’s been a bigger issue.

Hating obese people has come up in class. It was… not okay.

I keep having to read stuff about “physical wellness” and how important it is, and I can’t help think that I am failing somehow in my field because I am overweight.

I have started struggling with food again.

It started when I realized my teeth were in bad shape and I had to stop drinking soda and juice. A few weeks ago.

Then I kind of slowly started restricting other things.

Now I’m restricting a lot of things.

I just ate steamed broccoli and chicken for dinner, but I feel like it was too much chicken, and it was off of a rotisserie chicken and… ergh.

I feel kind of sick.

I can’t talk to my friends about it because they don’t really get it.

I feel like the chair was the last straw.

I cannot be this overweight.

I’ve lost 2lbs this week, but I need to start walking again to lose more.

Right now I really hate parts of me.

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4 thoughts on “So mom laughed

  1. I hope your friend gets the help they need and that you can prioritize yourself while setting boundaries that don’t enable but support your friend without triggering your issues. My daughter was recently diagnosed with bipolar at 13. My blog talks a lot about the caretaker/mom perspective, her struggles some, and looks at the C-PTSD we are diagnosed with. Take care of yourself! ❤️

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