I told my mom about breaking the chair at the fair thing (see previous post), and she literally laughed at me.
That did not help.
I have been really struggling with my body image for, well forever really, but recently it’s been a bigger issue.
Hating obese people has come up in class. It was… not okay.
I keep having to read stuff about “physical wellness” and how important it is, and I can’t help think that I am failing somehow in my field because I am overweight.
I have started struggling with food again.
It started when I realized my teeth were in bad shape and I had to stop drinking soda and juice. A few weeks ago.
Then I kind of slowly started restricting other things.
Now I’m restricting a lot of things.
I just ate steamed broccoli and chicken for dinner, but I feel like it was too much chicken, and it was off of a rotisserie chicken and… ergh.
I feel kind of sick.
I can’t talk to my friends about it because they don’t really get it.
I feel like the chair was the last straw.
I cannot be this overweight.
I’ve lost 2lbs this week, but I need to start walking again to lose more.
Right now I really hate parts of me.
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