So worried about today

I have so many things in the fire right now.

I am going to volunteer in just over an hour and I’m pretty tired so I’m worried about how I’m going to do at the desk today. I don’t want to appear to be so blonde I can’t do it.

I am also “on alert” because my friend just got out of the hospital and is not doing well. I’m concerned that I’m going to be juggling her and trying to volunteer at the same time, and I am already so anxious about that I just don’t know what to do.

I’m additionally concerned that my admissions advisor to grad school is saying she hasn’t received my essay. I sent it, so I’m kind of freaking out.

I don’t know.

I don’t know if I should not volunteer since I’m likely to be interrupted by all of these things this morning, or go and be so anxious I can’t think, or what?

If I don’t go, I’ll be so angry with myself.

I have to I guess. I’m just super anxious.

Like really anxious.

Stuff is going to blow up today. I can feel it.