Keep seeing it

I keep seeing my grandpa’s casket being lowered into the ground over and over in my head.

I tried going out with a friend for a distraction this evening. It helped, but it was awkward and I didn’t know what to do when he said he had a “crush” for a long time.

I actually really like him. He’s funny and nice.

I think I freaked him out with the bipolar thing though. Which is probably good. He’s a good boy and well, I’m not so good.

Anyway, I’m stuck with this image in the cemetery. It sucks.

I don’t know if I can get rid of it.

When I’m not having those, I see him laying in the casket. Makeup filling his fingernails.

Not a fan.

I just want to throw up.

It’s very distressing.

I don’t think I should be allowed to go to funerals.

They never go well for me. I’m never okay and it’s not really closure.

I just am glad it’s all over with.

What a mess.

Hopefully, I can just sleep.

These images are terrible.

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