I feel numb

I can’t seem to unlock my emotions.

I am just numb.

I should be terribly sad. I guess.

I have been terribly sad.

Now that my grandpa is gone, I’m just… unable to access it.

I feel a little reckless. I’m not sleeping well, or at least regular hours.

I am grieving I guess, but it’s not coming out right.

I don’t know.

I crave connection with other people.

Instead, I’m isolating in my room and talking to people on Facebook.

I’m doing it all wrong.

It is what it is I guess.

Church in the morning should help.

Maybe I’ll try out my foot and go for a walk tomorrow.

I also still need to clean.

Sigh.

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