I didn’t sleep

After I found out my grandpa had passed, I was wide awake. This was despite the fact that I had taken my meds.

I ended up staying awake all night long talking to a friend from high school.

It was really nice to reconnect and have a real conversation. It had been forever since we’d done that and we used to be very close.

I am a little tired today, but not as tired as I should be, which is mildly disconcerting.

I really don’t have time to be episodic right now.

Like AT ALL.

I need to clean my room, my bathroom, my car and the guest room.

So much cleaning.

I’m taking today off though to go visit with a friend for a while and then I’m coming home to hopefully nap for a bit.

I think it’s okay to take today to just kind of process.

I may have done all of my processing before hand though because I’m pretty zen about the whole thing right now. It will probably hit me again at the funeral.

So yeah.

I also think running myself into the ground sleep wise is keeping me relatively numb. Tomorrow may be a different story.

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