Grandpa is failing…

I guess this morning the girl that takes care of my grandpa the most couldn’t even get near him because he is hallucinating.

I fear we are at the final stages of life.

I feel awful for her and the people who have been caring for him the most, (like my stepdad, cousin and uncle).

It’s awful to hear about, let alone have it be my grandpa, but I can’t imagine what his main caregivers must be going through.

I am glad I went to see him when I did even though it was hard.

I don’t think I could handle seeing him now.

I would if I were needed, but it’s not and I think it would probably just upset him since he’s so confused and disoriented.

I am just trying to help my mom. Which I’m kind of failing at in all fairness.

I need to do better so my stepdad doesn’t feel so pulled in so many directions.

I love my grandpa. He’s the kindest, gentlest man. I have so many great memories.

I just want him to not suffer.

This is hard.

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