Tw: eating disorder
Do I look freaked out? I am.
I mean, I met the goals she asked me to meet, but I don’t feel like I’ve been successful since I have really decreased what I’ve been eating in the last two weeks.
Like a lot.
She’s very nice.
All of my providers are very nice.
I am just… nervous.
It’s one thing to tell people who don’t understand eating disorders what’s up, because they don’t really understand that it’s a problem since I’m fat, but my dietician knows. She’s a certified eating disorder expert and I cannot snow her.
I mean, I don’t want to. I wouldn’t be going to her if I didn’t want to be healthy, I just think I’m kind of not at the state of change I need to be yet in order to fix this.
I’ll just breathe through it. It’s too late for anxiety meds.
I might cry through it too.