Need to crash

My mood is tanking.

I’ve been doing okay most of today. I mean, I’ve been holding it together, but now I’m starting to fall apart.

I’m restless and not able to fall asleep.

I hate this.

I just want to be able to crash.

I either need a higher dose of this new med or it’s not a good fit.

I don’t know.

I am uncomfortable.

I hate feeling like I am walking on the edge.

It’s so hard. I just don’t know. It’s also really defeating to feel so bad after being able to breathe a little today. It feels like I’m always going to have to be on guard.

Ugh.

I’m exhausted.