Well, it’s 4am

And due to unfortunate circumstances, I am wide awake.

I don’t know why I keep waking up in the middle of the night.

It’s crap though.

I will be an exhausted mess later.

My sleep cycle is a disaster.

I didn’t go to sleep until ten, so it’s not like I went to bed at six or anything and I’ve been awake for an hour or more.

I will be forced to nap today which will screw things up even more!

My alarm is set for seven, and it’s after four now, so I’m debating whether I’m going back to sleep at this point.

I want to, I just don’t know if I can.

It’s one of the lesser talked about parts of depression- the insomnia it can cause.

Then, if I start getting too little sleep for too long, I bounce in the other direction or end up mixed, (much more likely these days).

It’s a messed up cycle I’d like to be out of ASAP.

Oh well.

I have books and I have art. I’ll find something to do.

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