My bewitching hour

Here it is, four in the morning, and I’m awake.

Again.

It doesn’t appear to matter when I go to sleep, although I generally go to bed around the same time every night.

My body is determined that six hours of sleep is all I’m allowed to have, and my brain requires eight or nine to be functional and balanced.

It’s a problem.

I also just dislike four in the morning because no one else is awake to talk to. I am alone.

I’m an only child so you think I’d be okay with “alone,” but I actually hate it. I don’t mind being physically alone for a while, that can even be peaceful, but I really hate being disconnected.

I like having people I can send funny comics to and laugh with or tell about my day and cry with. It’s just part of my need as a human I think.

Even in my 20’s when I had my own apartment though and I lived on my own, I was never in it. You would find me at the local bar with a book or playing board games with people just to be engaged with fellow humans.

It was not unusual for me to be in that small town bar for ten hours a day. I even studied, (as much as I actually did that), in that bar. Including for the law school entrance test. (Did well on the test and got into good law schools, but like everything else, you’ll notice I didn’t really do the law school thing).

Anyway, I’m not sure what’s going on with this four in the morning early wake up thing other than I’m depressed and that messes with your sleep/wake cycle.

If you made it this far, thanks for reading!

Image from Pexels.

2 thoughts on “My bewitching hour

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s