I am terrible

Okay. I need to preface this by saying I am not really okay.

I’ve been having a pretty rough week and I’m just barely hanging on.

I should be doing better by my friends though.

My friend was scared tonight and wanted me to stay at her house because she thought she heard people outside last night.

I was going to.

Except.

I got there and she was exhausted and conked out right after dinner and I was left to be awake and freaked out.

Umm… what is my biggest most scariest thing in the whole wide world when I’m not doing well?

People breaking in wherever I am.

Soooo…. needless to say, me as a guard dog is not really a good plan in this headspace. Not at her house.

So yeah.

I feel like a terrible friend, but I just couldn’t do it.

I was even too scared to take my normal route home because it was dark, so I went out of my way and took the highway.

I just know when I’m having warning signs for me above and beyond obvious ones.

Two of them popped up this evening.

Sigh.

I just feel bad.

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