I’m just unsettled

I feel iIke I’m trying to balance on a teeter totter.

Ugh.

I just can’t get it right.

I’m really unsettled this morning.

I don’t know what I’m going to do with my day.

I hate television. I can’t just stare at it all day and entertain myself.

I don’t have errands to run.

I don’t have anywhere to go.

I don’t want to clean.

I don’t know if I can sleep anymore.

I just… ack!

I’m not okay.

I’m so tempted to go to a dispensary and celebrate 4/20 and I don’t even like pot.

It would just be a way to kill time.

Sigh. My therapist and I are supposed to connect in a bit here for a “check in.” I don’t know what she’s gonna be able to help with, but she’s pretty smart.

Ugh. I guess I’ll go toss in more laundry.

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