I’m going to have to use a lot of what DBT calls “opposite action” today.
This is basically when you do what you don’t feel like doing.
Like today I woke up.
Then, in spite of the fact that I’m clearly not going to Georgia to use it, I still did a Spanish lesson today on Duolingo.
I am exhausted because I only got six hours of sleep and I’m still recovering from the side offers of that vaccine, but whatever. I’m up.
I have to take a shower. Not optional.
I have to do laundry.
I have to visit some friends today.
I’m like not getting in my car and driving anywhere.
I’d like to.
I don’t even know where I’d go at this point, but somewhere else.
I just need a break.
I have this week and a half hole in my schedule with nothing in it.
No appointments. No structure. I am not going to be okay.
I need to go somewhere.
That’s out of my system.
Anyway, I just need to plod along day by day I guess.
As you can see, I’m a little anxious. Or a lot.
I’m also just really sad.
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