I’m really scared

I’m going in for my second covid vaccine today and I’m really nervous.

Everyone I know except for my parents has gotten really sick from their second dose.

I do not have time to be sick.

I need to pack and get ready to go to my dad’s.

I’m so stressed out.

On top of that, now literally everything I eat is running through me and I don’t know why. It’s a symptom of chronic pancreatitis apparently, and that probably is my life, but I need to get one more lab done to see if that’s the case. It’s been happening for weeks, so I’m fairly certain it’s not covid or something.

In the meantime, I just feel AWFUL.

Tw here for discussion of eating disorder type stuff…

I’m starting to feel lightheaded from not eating enough I think and then running to the bathroom. It’s probably unsafe. I have dropped a lot of weight really quickly. That kind of scares me too. I mean, I’m happy, but I’m also scared. Does that even make sense?

So anyway. I’m just a ball of nerves this morning.

I don’t feel well, I’m depressed, and I have to go get this shot which in all likelihood is going to make me sicker than crap.

Yay.

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