Trying to be.

That’s it. Just trying to be present.

I’m currently not doing a very good job.

My knee hurts like all get out. I don’t know what to do with it. I mean, no one will do surgery on it because it’s just trashed and I’m too young for replacement so I am just supposed to tolerate it.

It really sucks.

I ate fast food for dinner, which I am hating myself for. I didn’t want to cook and no one else cooks and I was really hungry because I took a nap instead of preparing a meal. I mean, I guess. I don’t know.

I am probably going to have to quarantine for weeks again. It’s a long story. I’m just upset about it. I hate being trapped in the house. I also don’t want to get sick. I didn’t last time, and I’m not yet, but I’m probably going to have to cancel my dentist appointment and some other things which I don’t really want to cancel. We’ll see. I probably won’t know until Friday. Yay virtual therapy! (Note the sarcasm).

So whatever. I’m also trying to clean in this moment. It’s really hard to do with a bum knee.

I’m really frustrated. People have expectations of me and I can’t meet them.

Yeah.

Okay. I’m not in the moment. Whatever.

This moment sucks. I’m gonna work on accepting that instead.

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