Not doing homework…

I realized today that I haven’t been doing my DBT diary cards.

Oops.

Like I haven’t been doing them for a couple of weeks.

My therapist totally didn’t ask and I just didn’t think to do them.

I hate the DBT format.

A lot.

The cards are really tiresome to me and not super helpful.

“Did you use this skill today?” I mean, I use most of them automatically so it’s not really something that I have to think about and it’s annoying and artificial to have to go back and dissect my day and say, “oh! I guess I used opposite action here.”

I don’t mind the mood charting so much, but I wish there was a way to track the things that were relevant to me and that I need to work on. I don’t know.

I might go back to the old mood charts I used to use (linked on my blog’s homepage I think). It works pretty well for me, even though it doesn’t track all of the separate emotions.

Maybe I’ll look for a good DBT one. I don’t know. I have an app, but I’m not using that, so that’s trash. I need to find something I’ll actually use.

I am feeling… a little defeated by the whole DBT thing. I love my therapist and she’s helpful, but I feel like so much recently has been just slapping band aids on crises that I haven’t been able to work on anything substantial.

I don’t know what I’d work on I guess. I mean, there’s a hot mess of things, but I don’t know what I want to work on.

I was feeling better for a while.

Now I’m starting to feel like things are sinking down again.

I hate bipolar, it’s awesome!

Anyway, it’s just another fun day for me. I’m anxious and trying to navigate everything in my life without disappointing anyone. It’s so hard to make everyone happy…

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