I was trying to write a poem this morning for something different, but I couldn’t get it out.
I am so tired.
My brain is also so busy.
I dreamt all night long. Weird and vivid dreams that made no sense.
I don’t understand why I have so much anxiety. I mean, clearly school is an issue, but there’s so much more to it. Like I just can’t breathe.
I keep having panic attacks. They just keep coming.
I don’t know if DBT is really going to help me with my massive anxiety issues. I don’t know if it will help with anything other than tolerating the anxiety, but I need something.
Meeting with the crisis team this morning was… kind of silly. I can’t keep repeating myself. They don’t want to hear it and I don’t want to say it.
I just want to throw in the towel and call it. I really do…
Hopefully my psych tomorrow can help.
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