It’s so hard for me to disappoint people.
I spend untold amounts of energy working on being a “people pleaser” and just trying to keep things on an even keel.
I am so freaking worried about having to tell my therapist that I am switching over to DBT. I know she is going to be blindsided because I haven’t talked to her about it before. I don’t really have time to introduce the idea and that would make it a lie anyway since I’m going to do it.
For those that don’t know, in DBT you switch to their therapist for the length of the program, (and then you can switch back to your old one if you want), so she will know this means she is “losing” me as a client. I hate terminating relationships with providers.
I super hate having to tell her this. Like a lot. She’s very nice. She’s actually beyond nice. It’s just that I need something VERY structured right now and she can’t possibly do that. DBT is run by a team of people and she is not a team.
Ugh. I feel sick about having to talk to her.
I don’t know.
I’ll feel better when it’s done I guess.
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