Understand?

I don’t understand how I could be in a place where I got all of my homework done last night, and I still had a panic attack.

I mean, I sort of do. I overthink everything and I started getting ahead of myself about the upcoming week.

Honestly though. Why can’t I just be happy about what I accomplished? Why do I freak out? I don’t understand that?

I am literally physically ill this morning I am so upset. I shouldn’t have had that coffee.

I don’t know what to do about this week. I don’t even know what the assignments are yet and I am a mess.

My calendar has something on it for every day, plus meeting with the crisis team. I dunno. It’s good, and it’s bad.

I just need to “stay in the moment,” but I can’t. Why can’t I?

Last night was so bad. I worked myself up to the point that I can’t even describe what was going on in my head.

I’m just tired of it.

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3 thoughts on “Understand?

  1. This happens to me as well, especially when I allow myself to participate in negative self talk or thoughts. It’s definitely hard to control! Anxiety based on projecting and negative thoughts/self talk is very real and sometimes hard to explain to people that have not experienced it first hand. Just know, you’re not alone!

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