Day 4

Today I have hives because I'm so upset. Things keep getting harder. I found out that, because my parents claimed me as a dependent on their taxes, there won't be a check coming my way. Don't get me wrong. It's not like I expected this money anyway, but I had a credit card I wanted … Continue reading Day 4

Disaster…

I am a disaster. I feel like I'm teetering on the edge of sanity. I don't know how I'm going to make it through this "stay at home" order. Michigan is the 5th worst hardest hit state in the country, so it's stupid to go out and risk exposure or potentially exposing other people unless … Continue reading Disaster…

Day 3

I can't. I saw fifteen minutes of the news today and I can't take even that. I am so overwhelmed. I cannot handle facebook. I can't. I am trying to relax by watching Netflix. My friend and I are going to the grocery store in a while, and I am looking foreword to going outside, … Continue reading Day 3

Climbing…

I feel like I'm climbing up the walls. My anxiety is so high. I hate this situation so much. My friend helped to calm me down tonight because I was on the edge of hysterics over all of the things that are going on. On the "fight, flight, or freeze" scale, I'm usually the one … Continue reading Climbing…

Day 2

Day two of lockdown. Dognapped the dog again to sleep with, but I think my friend is becoming annoyed with me because her dog is her baby. Seriously refuse to watch the news. It's too terrible. I might go for a walk around the block today just to burn off all of this junk I've … Continue reading Day 2

Day 1

Well, it's the morning of day one of our state's lockdown. I'm trying to move to a place of acceptance about it because being angry isn't getting me anywhere and freaking the f%#k out isn't helping either, (excuse the language, but there isn't a better phrase for what I've been doing). I panicked so hard … Continue reading Day 1

Totalitarianism

It's unreal. I have friends that WANT the government to shut everything down. They think it's a great idea to suspend our civil liberties for however long because they are afraid. Honestly, I have a much better understanding of the rise of totalitarian regimes in some countries. People just handed power over out of fear. … Continue reading Totalitarianism

Only

I think people think only children are happier because "they are spoiled more." Maybe some are. I mean, I was spoiled. I was also alone all of the time. My parents had to work, and by the time I was 9 or 10, I got left alone a lot. This virus thing, where I'm trapped … Continue reading Only

Currently….

This picture of Carrie in a garbage can with a bottle of wine is pretty much everything right now. No, I'm not drinking. I wish I were drinking, and honestly I keep thinking that it wouldn't matter if I did and it would make this stupid virus thing at least more tolerable. It's not just … Continue reading Currently….