Do you guys ever have those days where your anxiety is so high that it feels like any sort of stimulus will make you “pop?”

I’m totally there today.

I’m pretty sure it’s because my med review is tomorrow and things have been so wonky I don’t know what to expect.

I’m hoping, (and praying), that everything is pretty normal and that it just goes smoothly.

I mean, I kind of need help with something for sleep, but I don’t know if my provider will do that since she’s all about me going to the sleep clinic. That is such a waste of my time. I’ve done that before. They won’t even deal with me because I can’t tolerate their face mask thing (I hate stuff on my face).

So it might just be a weird conversation and a no change in meds.

I don’t know.

I am just worried about it.

I’m trying to come up with things to distract myself, (blogging is one of those), and I might draw or do some art later, but I’m just feeling a little AAAAAGAGGHHHH!

I’m sort of frozen right now.

I actually do really like both of the providers I see tomorrow and I know they care about me so it isn’t like it’s some kind of horrible thing. I’m not sure why I’m so worked up.

I guess it’s just because I was kind of an idiot last weekend.

Oh well. It is what it is. Can’t change it.

Old orginal art by me.

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